“You don’t have to say anything,” Rae said. She wasn’t coming into the room. She just stood in the doorway.
And he didn’t. He waited. He was thankful that, in that moment, she could not see his Light.
“I know that it might seem sudden, but during the last few days I’ve been thinking a lot about my life. I’ve been thinking about what I’ve done here and how it’s affected the world. I was so scared at first, wasn’t I?” She laughed. “I was so scared that meddling with things in my own past would screw up my present…but I don’t think that anymore.”
Eliot had nothing to say. He let her continue after a pause.
“You know what I think? It’s kind of weird, but I think everything I’ve done—everything that I seemingly ‘changed’—is exactly what I was always supposed to do. I think that this might have always been the way it happened. Even before I was born, I’d already been here. Time’s funny like that. Does that make sense at all?”
Eliot still did not move. His heart felt like it was going to explode out of his chest.
“Anyway. I’ve spent some time Outside…which is funny to say, if you think about it, because if I’m Outside of time, then there is no time to spend there.”
She was rambling. She didn’t usually ramble. She was always so collected. The change in her demeanor had Eliot examining her Light more closely than ever.
She sighed, catching her tongue. “The point is, I’ve decided what I’m going to do.”
Rae paused. Why did she pause? Eliot scrutinized her Light. He couldn’t see the answer there. Did that mean that she was staying? He couldn’t tell.